In His Beauty I See My Own

                                      

Lack of someone’s attention and love were the two main things that kept Precious Jones behind from the other kids, scared of her parents and not raising her voice against the violence that she was tolerating. Till she met Mrs. Rain, she was always scared of her parents. There was no one else who could help her to raise her voice against them. Her mother treated her like she was her slave. Her mother considered her the reason of snatching her husband away from her. She never cared about her needs. Even when precious had her baby and she had pain in her shoulders and she felt like she was going to die, her mother made her cook the food and made her eat, even when she was full. Her mother took advantage of her. The check that Precious and her little mongo used to get, her mother would keep it. I think if Abdul and Mrs. Rain haven’t come into her life, her life would’ve been different. Mrs. Rain taught her the lesson of learning and not considered her self a waste. Precious thought that because is overweight and black nobody loves her, if she had been white, people would like her. But, Mrs. Rain made her believe that she is beautiful and she and her son love her. When precious had son, she was more mature than she was for Little Mongo. Because she couldn’t do anything for Mongo, she decided to take care of Abdul and not let her mother take advantage of them. “My muver took Little Mongo but she ain’ taking this one”(64). Mrs. Rain was the one who force her to learn and be independent, and her son was her motivator to live and love him. It was only her son, who she wanted to live for, be educated, and do a good job. When he was born, she also started to take care of her self, because she had to be healthy enough to raise him. “I feed Abdul. My body is his breakfast. I gotta get something to eat myself” (78). I think Abdul is very important in her life. If she hadn’t had him, she probably have had ended her life. She lived for him and saw her beauty in him. “He my shiny brown boy. In his beauty I see my own” (139). The life that she couldn’t live, she wanted her son to live. If her son lives his life to the fullest, he would also live her life as well. She wanted him to give all the rights and happiness that she couldn’t get. He was only her hope, to live her rest of the life as a normal happy life. I think by giving him the attention that she couldn’t get from her parents, her soul was in peace that at least she tried her best to be good to her child. Her name is Precious, but it’s not just her name, she is a precious woman. Even after going through all that she gave her son the best life that she could. I just hope that when her son grows up, he would do the same for her. This would make her feel that she is really precious. It will be her victory over her parents that she is nothing like them.